Book of Poems — Volume I
Contains 15 poems about pain, love, loss and change. Book of Poems speaks to Millennials who have felt deeply—and feel deeply—the sometimes brutal loneliness and heartache in relationships, losing someone, and dealing with sadness.
Featuring Poems:
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MY HALF THE SKY
I look at me
ten years ago
that face is mine
this past I know
I stare at my life
try to figure out why,
I shrink in fear
sometimes can't even try
Where have I come?
what have I done?
I've surely laughed
and had some fun
But there's been tears,
a many few
leaked out of eyes
so cold and blue
Damaged goods
I thought was true
broken, beaten
misjudged by you
Moved I did
a dozen times,
but you always found me
I can't deny
You came close,
you sneaky scamp
you lured me off
Gods golden map
Your thoughts crept in
“Just end your life,
nothing’s worth it–
forget this strife”
But He held on
as I took my sway,
He held on tight
while I forgot to pray
In quiet nights
of solitude
I wrestled fear
and bad attitudes
Mostly mine
my fear and doubt
kept me hidden
and safe from shouts
I stayed in fright
those nights alone
I couldn't see
the light that shone
Now I can see,
it's me I face
this is MY life
I have a say
Sure I'm “damaged”
sure I'm “wrong”
but I'll be forgiven
and you'll be GONE
What I've done
is fine for me
God loves me just as much
you see
No I'm not perfect
I never will be
but the good is winning
inside of me
I don't raise my voice
I don't hit or spank
I don't leave my children
up to “regret” or “mistake”
I respect myself
because I'm worth it
me and my children,
we deserve it
My “Half the Sky”
yes I'll make it known
start healing, helping
our precious own
For each addiction
and each new face
is one less child
with a next birthday
Lets teach our young
have respect for life,
love and be strong
and make things right
Friends have died
loved ones passed,
I realize my own
will be fleeting fast
But as I am hugged
by my near and dear
I'll take a moment
to release my fear
My fear of rape
My fear of hate
My little girl going
outside to play
I release that life –
my life on Earth
the one that destroyed
with so much hurt
I'll thank the Lord
I made it through
as he hugs me and whispers,
“I believed in you
FOR ONCE
For once I want to wake up and be in love
For once I want to stop feeling the need to tell lies
For once I want to appreciate my youth
For once I want to be able to be the fullness of who I am
Without hiding
Without holding back
For once I want to be truly accepted
For who I am
For once I don’t want to apologize
For how I feel
For once I want everything to be enough
For once I don't want to fear change
Or my future
For once I want to take a hold of my destiny
And really live
CHANGE
Losing someone
It takes sleeping pills
To be able to fall asleep
Takes alcohol to numb the pain
To be comforted
But mostly it takes your heart
Willing to surrender
Willing to die
Willing to let your world turn dark
For hope of light at the end
It takes hope
And mostly faith
It takes believing in something
Greater than yourself
It takes finding yourself
And loving the person you find
It takes patience
For pain seems never-ending
It takes optimism and pride
Those who overflow their sea
Will drown in it too
Don't be weary
Many things could be worse
Think of those who are homeless
Without a family at all
Those who are paralyzed and disfigured
Though you feel empty
You still have so much consistency
So much beauty and power to make life better
It's you who chose to fall
Into the sadness of love that can never be
That was only for a lesson
Not life-long
It's time you take what you learn
And learn from it
Time you learned your lesson
And never make the same mistakes
It's time you grow up and change
For a change...
It's time for a difference
For you to not cry or feel empty
You can reflect, miss, hurt, even cry
But don't dwell, don’t die
Only to yourself – your life you've been holding onto
It is then you'll find life
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