Be Free

"Be Free" is a personal memoir themed by redemption. It's a story that's not about perfection or game plans, but one of breaking down the walls that hide the mess. It's about letting your imperfections, mistakes, and insecurities be seen, then loved, then healed. It's an invitation for others to step into that journey as well. This memoir goes from consistently getting hammered drunk while trying to maintain a 'rockstar life' image in order to keep people's attention, to meeting Jesus. It goes from a sobbing, ashamed, self hating drunk mess wrapped up in a blanket outside of a tour bus, to dropping everything to attend a Bible College and start a YouTube channel sharing what Jesus is up to every single week. It's a story about relationships, family, friendships, heartbreak, vulnerability, and everything else in between. There's not a lot in this book that gets left unsaid. Vulnerable and honest to the core, "Be Free" is not a formulaic self help book, but a real unfiltered journey of a young girl who just wanted to be loved. The book starts off on a night that Jackie was certain would be the end for her. It was a night that she was about to let out all of the secrets, all of the shame and fear that she had kept locked up for a year and a half out to the person that she feared the most. For that year and a half, Jackie had been living under a shame that told her that her story made her unloveable. Her mistakes defined her, and certain people finding out the truth was her biggest fear. However on this night, Jackie decided that she was done with the shame. She was done hiding from her past, and decided to come clean. Things that she was certain would be taken to her death bed with her were now going to be exposed. If you read this book, just know that it might not look very pretty at times, but it will very real. Let this book will be proof that no matter what the circumstances are, no matter how deep the wounds feel, how painful the heartbreak, how bad the mistakes were, there will always be hope. There is no place that Jesus hasn't been, no crack he hasn't seen, and no wound that he can't heal.